The
states of Maine, Maryland, and Washington (unconfirmed) approved
same-sex marriages, while Minnesota rejected an amendment that would
have forbidden them. This very accepting and liberal attitude I trace
back to the introduction of gay porn in the US back in the early
1970s. Before that, homosexuals were often relegated to the
proverbial closet, seedy nightclubs, and or underground meeting
halls. With the advent of the “porn-chic” movement, all forms of
sexual activity became less of a mystery. In fact, the first
“main-stream” gay porn film: Boys in the Sand, received
positive reviews in major periodicals. The following year, the
straight film Deep Throat broke records, and then all bets
were off. With the first threshold breached, as often happens,
Hollywood took notice of what was going on in porn and then started
to feature gay story-lines and characters in several major
motion-pictures and television shows: Partners, Making
Love, 10, Threes Company, Soap, etc. Now, we
all live with the ongoing ramifications: hardcore porn addiction,
broken marriages, the strange phenomena of childhood sex-changes and
coming-out parties, the acceptance of gay marriage, and the
continuing rise of AIDS among the youth.
While
I am not advocating a return to the pre-Stonewall days of
gay-bashing, for the Catholic Church has always advocated that all
men, including those with homosexual tendencies, should be loved and
respected, the problem is that the entire modern gay movement was
founded on principals of sexual freedom, not the freedom of the human
person. The act became the signature of gay liberation. When in
reality, all became chained to a dependence upon it, not upon their
own worth.
Being overwhelmed with feelings of shame and internalised homophobia is heartbreakingly sad. It is clear you are a gay man and will always be one.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing wrong with being gay, having a sexuality or enjoying porn. Hating yourself however is extremely damaging
Much love to you xxxx
Acknowledging that you sin is a huge step. A lot of people sin and don’t think there’s anything wrong with it while some people finally come to see how destructive sin can be. But God does not want us to live with guilt. He wants us to know and fully experience His forgiveness. Although, sometimes, it is very hard to forgive yourself. We have to remember that when we confess our sins, Jesus cleanses us. I have to work on that all the time. I wish I could forget my sins, but sometimes its not that easy. I understand what Joseph is saying and I don't think he is hating himself, literally.
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